Feel like I've been real superficial with people lately. I guess I haven't been saying what's really on my mind. It's like I'm keeping my true self inside. Letting the emotions eat away at me. Yes, I've been talking to my friends and all. But I just can't seem to open up like before. Feel at times that I'm all alone. With no one to really talk to. Don't understand what's happening but I sure hope its a phase that will pass! I hate being unable to convey my feelings. Being unable to say what I really feel. Don't wanna keep things inside me, it weighs me down. I've even resorted to talking to myself to get things out. It's scary to even think about it. I'm just hoping that I'll get outta this. And find my old self back...
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 02:39 *-- [.//cry out**
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Trying to get a new template up. Actually wanna do one myself. But I'm too lazy. Can't be bothered. Hence, I'm searching for one online now. +sighs+ I'm so hard to please. Been searching for 274834379274902 hours and I can't seem to find one I like. +smacks self+
Gonna start AMaths tuition later today. See how it goes before I pay up for the papers. La Dee Darh~
Till then, goodbye and good night!
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 01:18 *-- [.//cry out**]
+sighs+ I'm bored! I don't know what to do. Just came home from some dinner. Oh, I saw Willie (or is it Willy?) Ah well, Bobby from lightyears. He was at my aunt's place. So cute +melts+ Okay, I'm mad. Yes. And I know that!
+yawns+ So tired! So sleepy. But I can't sleep. As usual... Must be insomnia or something. Head hurts +bangs head+
Hmmms, was thinking just now. Was I too childish in thinking that I could someday be a counsellor? Is it so impratical?! Ah well. It's still my dream. That I'm hoping will come true someday. But then again, can I really help people, touch their lives? No doubt, that is what I wanna do. But am I capable of it???
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 22:02 *-- [.//cry out**]
Okay, this is gonna be long. But I think it's real sweet. Got it from an email from Ching. Thanks babe. And yes, it's perfect with the song +grins+
When you love someone, you'll do crazy things you can't explain, you'll deny the truth and believe in lies. When you love someone, you sacrifice, give everything you've got and don't think twice. You risk it all no matter what.
Everything in life is temporary because everything changes. That is why it takes courage to love, knowing
it might end anytime...having faith will make it last.
Friends are not the one who laugh when you laugh and cry when you cry. They are the ones who make you laugh and stop you from crying.
Love is the feeling we fall in and out of, and every time we fall off, we learn to hold on tighter...hoping that next time, we may never have to let go.
They say when love knocks at your door, open it. But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back door and before you begin to notice it, it's on it's way out.
Have you ever loved only to let it go? Have you ever hated someone and loved him so? Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry? Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why?
True: Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of a man.
Love is not the right word to say when you feel guilty nor the right word to say when you like a person but love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds, and our hearts...
Life has a way of changing things but not the joy that friendship brings, for friendship is like the shining moon, makes each night a brighter one.
Love is not for beauty or color of the skin, but for a heart that is loyal within, for beauty fades and the skin would grow old but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain; so easy to get, so hard to let go; so easy to spell, so hard to define...and yet everyone is still taking the risk. That's love!
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in love in mutual weirdness and call it LOVE!
Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pain, but if you don't follow your heart; in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.
Don't run ahead of God. Let Him direct your steps. He has plans and He has His time. God's clock is never one minute early nor one minute late. It always strikes right on time.
If someone loves you, love them back not only because they love you, but also becasue they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you have never seen or felt without them.
The past is meant to be used as a tool for the future. Bad experiences indeed make you bitter but the lessons learned should make you better.
On letting go: it hurts to see someone you love happy with somebody else; but wouldn't it hurt you more to see that person unhappy...with you?
When you find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, lips that will kiss you in both instances, and a heart that will love you at your worst, then you have found true love.
Someday, someone might come into your life and love you in a way you always wanted. If your someday was yesterday, LEARN; if your someday is tomorrow, HOPE; if your someday is today, CHERISH.
Let go of the hand of the person you love, but don't let go of God's hand. For when you hold on to His hand, He may be holding the person you love on the other hand, to let you hold each other again.
Why do people say loving too much makes you stupid? It's because you'll always be wrong even if you're right. you're weak even if you're strong. You give without receiving. You cry, get pains but still say you're happy.
How would you know if you've fallen in love real hard? It's when someone hurts you and you love him still. Then he hurts you again to find out that you love him even more...
We only have one heart, but there are many places in it wherein we keep every person we meet. Somebody whom we know we might never meet again, but will never be forgotten.
Your friends are like buttons on the elevator --- they will either bring you up or take you down. Choose the people you want to call friends, but be sure to get yourself on the right floor.
If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices; either tell what you feel and let love take its place or forever hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretenses.
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for the one available. Best to wait for the one you love than the one who's around. Best to wait for the right one 'cause life's too short to be wasted on just someone.
If you feel love, don't lose a grip on it, you'll never know the one you let go was the one you waited for all your life.
We can never understand joy till we feel sorrow, faith till we're tested, peace till we're faced with conflicts, trust till we're betrayed, and love till it's gone.
Love is not a matter of finding the right person but rather creating the right relationship. The important question is not how much love there is at the beginning but how much there is at the end.
Sometimes no matter how secure you are in someone's arms and no matter how tightly you hold on to this person's hand, you'll find yourself falling...dangerously in love with someone else...
There are some who catch our sight and only few who touch our hearts. Look into your heart and pursue the person you love for it's better to risk than just let love pass you by.
When everything seems to be unfair, when all that you do isn't appreciated, I'll take your hand, wipe away your tears, take you for a walk and tell you everything will be fine.
Sometimes in life you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh till you can't stop. Someone who holds your hand and never lets you go alone in life.
This is soo soo true. +sobs+ Haha
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 22:14 *-- [.//cry out**]
Okay, I just made the smartest/dumbest decision in my WHOLE, ENTIRE life, depending on which way you see it!
Just registered as a private candidate for this year's O Levels. Only one subject though... AMaths! Wish me luck! I've got like 7 months?? Ah well, we'll see how it goes. Haha
Ah well, met Paul for lunch. And I don't think he ever wants to go out with me anymore. Hahha. Dragged him around town cause I desperately wanted to spend money. BUT I ended up NOT buying anything. Lol. Went home around 4+, slept for like an hour and realize Ed and Jill were at my place even before I got home. Watched 2F2F with them and kinda hung out. Made lotsa noise with the 3 guitars and messed up the living room with pizza and soda cans. Lol. Had fun I suppose. And now my throat's half dead. Feels damn dry even though I drank like 27310423232643982468 bottles of water. Bleah
Help me!!! I don't care!! You hafta go and search for what I wanna get when we go out next week! Irregardless of how lame/corny/cheesy you think it is! +sulks+ Lol
Paul
Sorry sweetie. Hope I didn't bore you to death!! Haha.
Jia
Dearest woman! Thanks for helping me make up my mind!!!
Ching
Don't be too upset over the appeal stuff yeah? Just make the best outta the current situation la! Love you always!! :)
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 21:44 *-- [.//cry out**]
Hmmms, funny how boredom can drive someone to wanna make big decisions.
Am currently thinking of retaking my O's. Don't ask me why. Well, am thinking of doing AMaths. Haha. What a joke eh? Cheryl doing AMaths! Ah well, just a thought. Though I kinda am tempted. But, IF I do retake O's, I will hafta do it while juggling with poly life. Hmmms, can I? And the thing is, I don't know how useful the O's results would be. Lol. I'm bored. Don't shoot me. Well, I have till the 27 March to seriously consider this. So yea. And I suppose there's no way I can only take like 2 subs. So I hafta do some serious thinking.
I'm hungry now. But there's nothing to eat at home. The whole house's a mess now. +sighs+ I'm gonna starve to death. Haven't eaten since I woke up. Bleah`
Anywho... I'm off now. Gonna ponder.........................
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 19:34 *-- [.//cry out**]
To all those people who's appeal was successful, CONGRATS! Truly happy for you guys. And those waiting for results, DON'T lose hope! Have faith! Yang, please don't give up this opportunity!
As its been said, I'm happy for em. But I gotta admit I'm disappointed. Disappointed in myself. Yeah well. What can I say. Accepting what's been given to me doesn't mean that I'm totally happy with it. Deep inside, I'm still hoping and praying that I get accepted to a JC. But somehow, I know that will not happen. Yeap
*Mel x: I MISS YOU la stupid bitchy bungbo! I think it's been the longest since I last saw you +faints+ I think I'm gonna miss you so much till I die if I don't see you soon! I don't care!! I need to see you, unless you want me to die. Then don't see me la +pouts+ Haha. See la, I fell sick without seeing you. Your dream's coming true. My nose feels like its gonna fall off soon. Can change with MJ soon!
*Yen x: Cheer up la. At least you can beg the security guard there. And sign out with stupid names. I guess you just hafta make the best outta it? Anyways, I MISS YOU can! I don't care. No matter what happens, this SAT!!! Super bonding. And I'll ask Jia to bring super glue to glue us all together!
*Yanxi x: Woman! +pokes+ What happened to you? Having too much fun in AJ? And I know someone's over the moon right?! Haha. Miss yoooooo!
*Jia x: Yes, my dearest. I will let you know if I need that superglue. Oh yes, in fact, I DO! Bring it on Sat. Can glue us all together. Then we can go to YJ and accompany Yen in that ulu-fied place. Haha. Miss you la woman!
*sweetie x: I LOVE YOU! Haha. I'm crazy. I wanna watch the movie again. I still don't really get it till now. Haha. And can you please take care?!
I'm tired. Gonna sleep. Hope my nose doesn't fall off. Bye
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 11:20 *-- [.//cry out**]
Dad's been an absolute darling. Haha. And no, I'm not crazy. Something's come over my dad. He's finally realized that he and mom have treated me like crap over the results. And now, he's making up for it I guess? Oh well, whatever the reason is, it doesn't matter. Lol, as long as he's nice. Yeah, like I said yesterday, we had a long talk about my future. And he seems to really want me to stay in NP and forget about JC. Well, I suppose there's nothing really bad about poly. I'm just paranoid and afraid that.... Yeah. That's the main reason I suppose? Ah well +shrugs+ I've still got a few more days to think about this. Not that NY or CJ will call anyways. So why bother thinking. +hmmms+
Haha. I'm crazy
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 12:37 *-- [.//cry out**]
I'm nuts. Was grabbing the phone everytime it rang. Hoping that it was a JC calling to tell me my appeal was successful. Haha
Had a long talk with dad about my future just now. Thought about it too this afternoon. Actually, been thinking about it since the O's results were out. I really really wanna go to a JC. But rationally, I think poly would be a better path for me. And I suppose in life, I can't make decisions on what I want, but what's best for me +sighs+ Sad, but true!!
Well, it's all over now. Can't do anything about it anymore but pray. And I trust that God will bless me. And whatever happens, it's what's best for me
+sighs+ Cheryl's thought it through hasn't she?
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 21:38 *-- [.//cry out**]
Stress stress stress!! Just realized how stressful this is. +sighs+ It's even more stressful than sitting for the papers itself. Hmmms, I shouldn't even be thinking about this anymore cause today's the last day for appeals and I'm still at home at 4.20pm! +shrugs+
Went to appeal at CJ and NY yesterday. Travelled round the whole of singapore with Ching. Damn tiring. She went to AC to appeal. Met Paul yesterday too. Ah, too tired and lazy to blog. Shall blog another time or something.
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 16:18 *-- [.//cry out**]
Today's worship touched me in a way worship has never done before. It actually spoke to me. I shouldn't worry, shouldn't think about it, shouldn't meditate on it. Cause God will take care of it. He wants to take our worries and fear and carry them for us. If only we aren't so insistant on carrying those burdens, we will see His wonderful works.
Right I know I shouldn't be thinking about it but I can't help it. Been throwing some possibilities around.
1. Appeal to CJ
2. Go to Aust
3. Just accept it and go to Poly
4. Retake O's
Hmmms, after seeking advice, praying and thinking about it. I've decided to go for possibility 1. And take it a step at a time? Going to Aust is just something I've thrown to the wind now. Too many factors for me to stay. There's just too much I can't leave behind. So yeah +shrugs+
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 16:55 *-- [.//cry out**]
I like how my arm looks now.
The feeling was sensational.
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 21:14 *-- [.//cry out**]
Crushed. Disappointed. Screwed up. What else can I say to describe how I'm feeling now.
Checked postings the first thing I woke up. Got posted to NP. What "wonderful" news to get first thing when you wake up. To make sure I wasn't having a stupid nightmare, I checked and re-checked. Till it sunk it. That Cheryl's gonna be going to poly. And no, nothing good is gonna come out of this. Cause this isn't what I want. And I absolutely don't see how anything good is gonna come out of me doing something I DON'T wanna do!!
Finally realized how much my mom "cares". Was crying my eyes out and instead of saying something nice (or in her case, keeping her mouth shut when she had nothing nice to say), she goes on about how I'm going out everyday and how I deserve this! I mean like hello??? My going out everyday during these 3 months has nothing, I repeat, ABSOLUTELY nothing to do with the f-ing postings!! And what, I deserve this disappointment after I worked my butt off for the bloody fucking O's??! I don't fucking care anymore. Cursing all I want!
I just realized that I've been living a dream all this while. The real, inner me is a messed up, depressed, FAILURE.
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Monks-ed last night. Music sucked. Crowd was different. Caught 'The Eye 2'. Sucked. Wasn't scary.
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Feel I'm losing faith in everything. In myself, in everyone!
I miss him! I miss him badly. Fuck, I just don't see the point in anything anymore! Sick of this. Tired of everything. I know I've disappointed everyone. I'm Sorry!
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 12:14 *-- [.//cry out**]
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It's pretty cool. Calculates the compatibility of you and your crush :)
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 23:44 *-- [.//cry out**]
Its thursday today! 3 more days!!! Seesh, that was lame. Hmms, just woke up. And its like almost 7 pm. Man, I'm such a pig. Was supposed to meet Dawn in town but I decided my bed was a nicer place to be. Haha. Sorry babe!
I'm bored. Wanna go out now +sighs+ But there's no where to go!! Sick of town. Ah well.
It's only now that he's not here with me that I finally see how much he's done. And that there was no reason for my paranoia. +mutters+ *you're such an idiot* Hmmms, bored people do the weirdest things. Like talking to themselves. Oh, my dad's gonna go to work tomorrow!!! NOOOOOOOOoooooooooo! He just came back last night and I had a night of peace. And now he's going??! AGAIN?? NOOOooo. Okay, Cheryl's crazy!! Very crazy. Blahhh
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 18:50 *-- [.//cry out**]
Towned today. Am damn tired. So its gonna be a short entry. Slept around 5 last night. And Yang called at 1 and asked to meet at 2!!! Like duh I was late. Lol.
Anyways, sweetie left today. Missing him like crazy already. Started another countdown. Haha. 4 more days till he's back! Oh, he called just now. So damn touched la. Lol. And as usual, me being the idiot that I am forgot to tell him I found my old calling card with value inside so I could call him. Hence, I don't have the number +slaps self+
Yanxi's leaving tomorrow for HK. Ching's gonna go for guides camp. Su's gonna go to Bali. *Woman's taking 3 days off school!*
Gonna miss so many people +sighs+ I think I'm gonna shut up and go now.
Oh, its actually wednesday already. Okay, so its like 3 more days!! Yay! Can't wait can't wait!
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 01:44 *-- [.//cry out**]
He hasn't even left and I'm missing him +sighs+
Gonna go sleep now. Head hurts and I feel like puking
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 04:30 *-- [.//cry out**]
Am currently considering switching to blogger. Don't ask why. Just want a new URL I guess.
Cheryl's mind is working. Yay! Counting down till Monday. That's when we're gonna go find the flat headed fish! And also trying to make the days pass slower. Cause he's leaving to Thailand on Tuesday for 5 days! Which means most of the holidays. Which means I wouldn't get to see him! +sighs+
Oh well
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 23:56 *-- [.//cry out**]
Okay, scratch the previous entry! Everything's NOT alright. NOT alright at all. In fact, everything's a whirl, a mess. No no no. Everything's clear to me now and it sure ain't alright.
Sure, shit happens in a relationship and I should work things out. But this time round, I'm serious about giving up. I don't wanna be the clingy, needy one no more. If he can't gimme the attention that I crave now, no amount of time and patience would change that. I don't wanna be needy, I hate being needy. But it's just me and something that's real hard to change. In reality, nothing's this perfect and that includes our relationship. Yeah
It hurts, what I'm about to do. Believe me, it hurts. I wanna end it right here, don't wanna find out in the end everything wasn't meant to be.
I know I should be talking to him, but I can't find the words. Can never get them out! Don't know why I'm being like this. Feel so annoyed and upset with myself. I know I'm just paranoid but its just me, I can't help it! Maybe I'm asking for too much. But that's just me. I'm willing to change for him. But this is something that I don't think will and can be changed. I need the attention to feel secure, to be assured.
After everything I've poured out, I still don't wanna end this. But I know I have to. I have to follow my mind and not my heart. It's hard to do. Very very hard. But I've had enough of crying and annoying every single one of my friends about this. I'm sure they're all irritated with me for bugging them about him. And I'm sorry! I don't know why I'm typing everything out here instead of going to him and telling him everything straight up. Guess I don't have the courage.
Mel, Ching, Yang, Benji, Yenlin, Yanxi, Dawn, 'Los, Jams, Jia, J, Su and everyone else:: I'M SORRY. TRULY VERY SORRY FOR ANNOYING YOU WITH STUFF ABOUT HIM. AND I PROMISE YOU THIS WILL END SOON. If only I had the courage to let this go. It's only for the best I suppose
Paul:: It seems like everything you do just intensifies the feelings I have inside me. It just makes me love you more and makes me hate myself so much more. I hate myself for loving you so much in spite of all the doubts and tears. I don't know what else to do. I'm sorry for putting you through all that with me. You do deserve someone so much better than me. I don't want you to feel that I was a mistake and all.
Chance or Choice
When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance. When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.
The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.
Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen. I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 01:02 *-- [.//cry out**]
Sometimes I want to give up,
Wanna give in, I wanna quit the fight,
And then I see you baby,
And everything's alright.
Everything's alright
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 14:38 *-- [.//cry out**]
Okay, I see I haven't blogged an actual entry in like 5 days!! That's long. Hmmm
Monday, March 8
Sweetie came over for like an hour. Was so touched can. He came down all the way just to fix my stupid guitar. Anyways, went for dinner with Mel, Jamie and Benji at Bedok Corner. Silly Mel acted like she never ate a stingray in her life +lmao+ Benji was so sweet. He got drenched cause he sheltered us (Me, Jamie and Mel) in the rain +melts+ Everybody saw "Awww". Haha. We had fun bitching for ages. Cause like we got stuck there. Raining real bad. Oh, Jia came over too. Crapped like crazy! +lmao+
Tuesday, March 9
Met Ed for lunch at BK. Went over to Gelare and crapped there. Came back and jammed for a while before Yours Truly left to meet Mel, Yang, Jamie and Yenlin in town. Had dinner at "Noodle Bar". Mel, the hen-pecked one, left to send Yenlin home. Yang, Jams and me went to take neos! Man, I look so retarded, as always. +grins+ Oh well, met Mel after she sent Yenlin home and went over to PS. +grins+ *I'm sure we know why*
Wednesday, March 10
Didn't do much today. Slacked around at home. Watched David Tao's Soul Power DVD. Man, was it good. Haha
Oh oh. Mom found out about Paul today. Was annoying me the whole day about it +grr+ And!!! She told my dad. +screams+ This is bad. And now, they're shooting me looks of disbelieve cause I'm saying that he ain't my boyfriend. Haha. Like who'd believe eh?
Ahhh. Just heard that Bryan has officially left Westlife. Sha just told me. Saw a video clip of their press conference. It was so sweet. They actually cried. +sighs+ I miss those crazy times! Haha. +squeals+ Okay, I'm crazy. Very crazy. Okay, this is getting sleep-inducing. So I shall go now. Tata people! Nights. If anyone's still reading this. Haha. Byee
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 01:23 *-- [.//cry out**]
It’s been a long and winding journey,
But I’m finally here tonight picking up the pieces walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies
There’s nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes
My dreams came true when I found you; I found you, my miracle
If you could see what I see
That you’re the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness of me
You will know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
Nothing here before you
Feels like I’ve been born again
Every breath is your LOVE
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true right here in front of you my miracle
If you could see what I see
You’re the answer to my prayer
And if you could feel the tenderness of me
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
It brought me here, to be with you
I'll be forever grateful, forever thankful
My dreams came true when I found you my miracle
If you could see what I see
You’re the answer to my prayers, oh...
And if u could feel the tenderness of me
You would know it would be clear that angels brought me here
You know I love you baby
And if you could feel the tenderness of me
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 01:17 *-- [.//cry out**]
Okay, I FINALLY did my JAE yesterday. And I highly doubt that I'll get into any JC. Ah well, whatever happens, I'm sure it's God's plan! First 5 choices were JCs. Though they were kinda crappy choices. CJC-NYJC-ACJC-TPJC-SAJC. Dunno why I put TP and SA for. But what the heck. Then I put my Business courses in NP and SP followed by Biomed in NP. +prays hard+
Went to watch Cold Mountain with Paul this afternoon. The movie was damn good man! Oh, I'm gonna get my guitar tomorrow! +jumps around+ Can't wait!! Heh. I've been like this since I arranged with Ed to go get it tomorrow. Lol. How crazy can I get!? Damn happy. My Dad's amazing and wonderful. Hehe. I'm just rambling on and on.
Thanks dear for sitting through all my nonsense these few days and staying up all night. How many cups of coffee again? Anyways, I appreciate EVERYTHING you've done my angel. Love Love +xoxo+
-*Mel*-
Hey dearie. I'm really really glad everything's ok now. Thanks goodness! Cherish what you guys have yea. And you know that you can always count on me ya. Cheryl's always on standby. Just a call, a whisper and I'll be there. Love lots! +big huge hug with sugared violets and caramel apple+
-*Yan Xi*-
Hey babe. You can do anything if you set your mind to it. And whatever your decision, I'll be behind you. Just remember that running away won't solve your problems all the time. And if you need to talk, you know the digits to dial yea? Love you to dust. Miss you like mad. +choco covered strawberried flavor smooch with a gigantic cherry banana lolly+
-*Ching*-
Dearie, seems like ages since I've seen you. You've been great! Always there when I needed someone. Though I know I haven't been the bestest friend recently, I still LOVE you as much as ever. And you know that I'll be behind you always. Thanks for bringing *someone into my life +hugs+ Choose to be happy dearie! (I suppose you know what I'm referring to +smiles+) And keep in touch yea. Catcha soon. Love You always!! +hugs with marshmallows and hot cocoa+
-*Sweetie*-
I Love You baby! You've been an amazing source of strength and encouragement. I seem to have everything when I have you. Thank you for everything my sweetheart. You're my miracle, my dream come true and I'll never let you go! It's been an amazing month and I'm hoping many many many more will come. Love you always and more +muahx+
.//Everyone Who Cares\.
Thanks EVERYONE for being there. For supporting me. For all the advice. For the love. For the care and concern. For the messages. For the phonecalls. For the hangout/chillout sessions. For the bitch-fests. For the wake-up calls. For the lectures. For bringing me back down to earth. For the encouragements. For the hugs. For the acceptance. For telling me whats right and whats wrong. For the guidance. For listening to my whinings, ramblings. For the shoulder I cry on. For being the pillar of support. For the late-night talks. For cheering me up. For the trust. For the faith. For the great times we've had together. For EVERYTHING. For being my F.R.I.E.N.D! I LOVE each and EVERY one of you!! +huge hug+
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 20:24 *-- [.//cry out**]
+sighs+ So many things happened! I feel like such a horrible person. Said some stuff that could possiby destroy a perfectly good relationship. **Sorry Mel** +screams+ I think I should just keep my stupid comments to myself now. Really feel damn bad. Never seen her so frustrated, lost and vulnerable. Never ever!
Why why why?! I'm so so so damn sorry!
--* imperfect unsatisfaction 23:32 *-- [.//cry out**]